I hope you do at least one thing today that makes you happy, makes your day a little better.
be wonderful.
love-lea
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Tuesday, March 20
Thursday, December 29
Thoughtful Thursday- New Years Resolutions
I looked up the definition of resolution just so I knew exactly what I was getting myself into this year.
RESOLUTION: Firm decision to do or not to do something.
Well there ya go. plain and simple.
The word that startles me is "firm"... a firm decision. Great, now I feel even more pressure to make these resolutions phenomenal. I know what you're thinking, "Why make resolutions at all then? Why stress yourself out about it? Besides it's quite cheesy." Well ladies and gentlemen, you see I'm definitely the kind of person who strives off of lists and goals and marking one things off and seeing how much I can get done in my day. Some might find it exhausting (some days it can be quite the curse.) However, I find it exhilarating! I love, and I mean LOVE being productive.
But like I said, it can be a curse which is why my number one resolution (firm decision) this year is to stop planning so much. "WHA?!?!" That's right. It's going to take a lot of hard work on my part but I'm kind of tired of having my days so packed full of chores and to-do's that it leaves no room for me and Steven to have adventures. I'm still going to have things I would like to get done during the week but if laundry doesn't get done on a Monday because we wanted to go to the bookstore, then so be it! I'm a planner and organizer at heart and that will never change, but I still need to find some time to do fun things with life.
Resolution numero dos: Get Healthy. This one is probably on a lot of people's lists right now after we've gorged ourselves on all the cake, fudge, turkey, candy we could find. But in all seriousness healthy-ness will happen this year (hopefully). Working in an office, sitting all day means I don't need as many calories as I think. I don't need those extra pieces of chocolate after lunch or an extra bag of cheeze-its just because I'm bored. Boredom is my worst enemy, along with my love of how food tastes. I'm a foodie, but I need to set my sights on more fruits and veggies and things from the earth rather than things in packages and bags. Eating packaged food is actually a new habit since I got an office job (And possibly not loving it and being as happy as I think I could be has played a role in this.)
Number 3: Teach art to someone...somewhere. I really, really need for this to happen. In order to have the life I've imagined for myself I need to actually start doing something. I have a plan right now for the summer and hopefully it will be in full swing this June... as long as I don't chicken out. But a lot can happen in 6 months, so we'll see!
Resolution #4: Focus on making art I like. I have this very utilitarianism way of thinking. Everything must serve a functional purpose. I'm this way with things I buy for the house or things I buy to wear and unfortunately the way I make art. If I don't think I'm going to sell it or hang it in my house then why bother with making it? I'd just end up with a huge pile of artwork and nothing to do with it. What a sad way of thinking! Especially with something I love! So I'm going to work on not focusing about the materials I'm "wasting" but on the experience and skill I'm gaining. I've honestly been too scared to really let myself explore and see what I can do because what if I suck?! Haha But I think I'm ready.
Last but not least, resolution number 5: Plan my 1st years worth of teaching curriculum. Just thinking about this gets me all warm and fuzzy inside. Although, it might be a little tricky in the sense that I actually have no idea what grade level I'll be teaching when I do in fact get a job. I'll just have to plan for elementary, middle school, high school, and then a combination of middle and high school. This will take quite a bit of organization on my part, but luckily I'm pretty good at that :) I just figured I might as well be prepared to to teach if I actually think that's what's going to happen with my life. It's like praying for rain without carrying an umbrella. Just downright silly! I've got a good list of what I think I want to teach I just have to find a way that they all build on each other and fit into grade levels and all that jazz. I'm really excited to be prepared for the next step of my life!
I'm declaring this year for me. Not in a way where everyone else must pay attention to me and focus on me and give me what I want (I did just graduate and have a wedding, I think I've ran out of attention for now.) I'm declaring this year for me because I'm ready to start focusing and actually working towards the things I want in my life. The way I want my life to look and feel with my art and my husband and our families. I've done A LOT of soul searching since we got married and started our "grown up" lives and I have loved learning about what I want and figuring out how I need to make things happen. Growing up can be really exciting if you want to work for it and I think I'm ready!
RESOLUTION: Firm decision to do or not to do something.
Well there ya go. plain and simple.
The word that startles me is "firm"... a firm decision. Great, now I feel even more pressure to make these resolutions phenomenal. I know what you're thinking, "Why make resolutions at all then? Why stress yourself out about it? Besides it's quite cheesy." Well ladies and gentlemen, you see I'm definitely the kind of person who strives off of lists and goals and marking one things off and seeing how much I can get done in my day. Some might find it exhausting (some days it can be quite the curse.) However, I find it exhilarating! I love, and I mean LOVE being productive.
But like I said, it can be a curse which is why my number one resolution (firm decision) this year is to stop planning so much. "WHA?!?!" That's right. It's going to take a lot of hard work on my part but I'm kind of tired of having my days so packed full of chores and to-do's that it leaves no room for me and Steven to have adventures. I'm still going to have things I would like to get done during the week but if laundry doesn't get done on a Monday because we wanted to go to the bookstore, then so be it! I'm a planner and organizer at heart and that will never change, but I still need to find some time to do fun things with life.
Resolution numero dos: Get Healthy. This one is probably on a lot of people's lists right now after we've gorged ourselves on all the cake, fudge, turkey, candy we could find. But in all seriousness healthy-ness will happen this year (hopefully). Working in an office, sitting all day means I don't need as many calories as I think. I don't need those extra pieces of chocolate after lunch or an extra bag of cheeze-its just because I'm bored. Boredom is my worst enemy, along with my love of how food tastes. I'm a foodie, but I need to set my sights on more fruits and veggies and things from the earth rather than things in packages and bags. Eating packaged food is actually a new habit since I got an office job (And possibly not loving it and being as happy as I think I could be has played a role in this.)
Number 3: Teach art to someone...somewhere. I really, really need for this to happen. In order to have the life I've imagined for myself I need to actually start doing something. I have a plan right now for the summer and hopefully it will be in full swing this June... as long as I don't chicken out. But a lot can happen in 6 months, so we'll see!
Resolution #4: Focus on making art I like. I have this very utilitarianism way of thinking. Everything must serve a functional purpose. I'm this way with things I buy for the house or things I buy to wear and unfortunately the way I make art. If I don't think I'm going to sell it or hang it in my house then why bother with making it? I'd just end up with a huge pile of artwork and nothing to do with it. What a sad way of thinking! Especially with something I love! So I'm going to work on not focusing about the materials I'm "wasting" but on the experience and skill I'm gaining. I've honestly been too scared to really let myself explore and see what I can do because what if I suck?! Haha But I think I'm ready.
Last but not least, resolution number 5: Plan my 1st years worth of teaching curriculum. Just thinking about this gets me all warm and fuzzy inside. Although, it might be a little tricky in the sense that I actually have no idea what grade level I'll be teaching when I do in fact get a job. I'll just have to plan for elementary, middle school, high school, and then a combination of middle and high school. This will take quite a bit of organization on my part, but luckily I'm pretty good at that :) I just figured I might as well be prepared to to teach if I actually think that's what's going to happen with my life. It's like praying for rain without carrying an umbrella. Just downright silly! I've got a good list of what I think I want to teach I just have to find a way that they all build on each other and fit into grade levels and all that jazz. I'm really excited to be prepared for the next step of my life!
I'm declaring this year for me. Not in a way where everyone else must pay attention to me and focus on me and give me what I want (I did just graduate and have a wedding, I think I've ran out of attention for now.) I'm declaring this year for me because I'm ready to start focusing and actually working towards the things I want in my life. The way I want my life to look and feel with my art and my husband and our families. I've done A LOT of soul searching since we got married and started our "grown up" lives and I have loved learning about what I want and figuring out how I need to make things happen. Growing up can be really exciting if you want to work for it and I think I'm ready!
I would LOVE to hear about some of your new years resolutions! This is such an exciting time to me and I'd love to know how you guys are going to be making 2012 amazing!
Happy New Years!
Love-Lea
Friday, October 21
Reality Check
So, yesterday was a BIG day for me. Not only did I get my new driver's liscense (new name and everything!) But I also got my teaching certificate!!
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| Ta Da! I'm a grown up! |
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| yay, yay, yay! |
I have been looking forward to this for a really long time, I have just been waiting until our money was right. But monday morning I bit the bullet and did it!
It's absolutely crazy how a piece of paper can make you feel about yourself. As soon as I ripped open that envelope and read my name on it and the fact that it is now legal for me to teach art anywhere in the state of Oklahoma (so cool) I got completely and udderly giddy. I just couldn't contain myself! ( I'm getting butterflies just thinking about it) I mean, four years of working towards something that I know helps define who I am and I can now go out and do it.... mind blowing. I've never really felt so sure of myself and what I my future looks like.
Then it hit me....THIS IS REAL. This is so real. Holy mackeral! I can teach... I CAN teach! WHA?? I then realized I need to get myself together and actually start acting like an art teacher. I mean I have some thoughts on what I want to teach when I get a job "some day", but I need to get ready just in case I get a job tomorrow, or next week, or in a month. I don't know what God has in store for me, I just know I better get be ready! What an amazing wake up call. I need to be prepared for my amazing future because it might come sooner than I think.
So this is it. I'm going to be an Art Teacher. some where, some how, this is my life. beautiful.
Thursday, September 22
Thoughtful Thursday
I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Just wondering where my heart is, wondering what my dreams are. I know I want to accomplish great things... but what exactly? I have sooooooo many things on my "to do" list that I think I need to do that I forget about the things I know I have to in order to make my life what I want it to be.
I wonder about how many people are barely missing the mark, who are just on the brink of finding their niche, finding that place where they feel completely satisfied and fulfilled. I need to find my niche.
Sometimes I have to remind myself that "things" aren't what it's all about, that having stuff doesn't make your life full...just cluttered. I decided to write some of my dreams down, ( novel idea, right? ) just to remind myself that there is a purpose to my life. But there's just something about seeing them written out that make them more real, more attainable.
DREAMS:
- Build a house on top of our hill
- Sell my art and crafts
- Own a shop/studio
- have babies
- Have a job where I can be with my kids and family whenever they need me
- Travel with Steven
- Plan parties/weddings
- Make more clothing
- Teach (not neccessarily in a public school setting, but that would work too)
These are just a few of mine, I didn't want to get TOO deep at 9:30 in the morning, haha.
What are some of your dreams? Some things that you know you have to do with your life?
Happy Dreaming,
Love-Lea
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